A few days ago, I realized that I have no visual or audio works uploaded on this website, so I’ve decided to start posting such things more often. I always delete all my projects and renders after a few months, and after a year or two, I regret it deeply. Even if they were bad, it would be cool to take a fresh look at them after some time.

So, for some context: for the last 5–6 years, I’ve been learning different audio- and video-related skills. I don’t know why this exact field stuck with me, but I’m good at learning software, and I love creating things. I started with music production, mix engineering, and modular synthesis, and lately, I’ve switched to visuals. I have very little design knowledge, and this whole thing is pretty new to me, so I think it would be cool to share my learning process here. I have some experience with Blender and 3D in general, and right now, I’m learning After Effects. It was hard to make this decision because I’m definitely not a fan of Adobe software - it’s outdated, slow, and expensive - but I haven’t been able to find any alternatives for motion graphics yet. Fusion is the closest thing, but it also seems pretty slow and inconvenient, even for simple graphics.

Also, I’ve been drawing a lot lately. It’s hard, and I suck at it, but my main goal here is to understand color science better - watercolor gives so much understanding, even if you just mess around. Besides that, drawing seems to be really meditative; I like how time slows down when I draw. I’ll show some works in the next weeknote.

This post was mostly intended as an introduction, but here are a few of my latest visualizations. I made it in Blender and DaVinci in a day or two, and it was super fun! The one thing that is not fun at all is rendering 30 seconds of 4K video - it took around three hours. (After this one, I decided to make everything in low resolution and dither it. It always looks okay that way.) I was considering the best way to upload it but decided to go with an embedded GIF, even though it’s much heavier than other options. Sorry, guys from the 512kb club - I’ll try to come up with something better next time!

I’ve always had a bad feeling about doing a lot of different things and not sticking with something particular. If you could describe me in one phrase, it would definitely be “Jack of all trades, master of none.” Since childhood, this has felt like my biggest flaw, and I’ve always been embarrassed by my inconsistency. But lately, I’ve finally accepted it and decided to let things take their course without any restrictions. I don’t know if there’s any purpose in this, but I think that the desire to find purpose in everything causes more problems in the long run.

The one thing I enjoy after these 5–6 years of doing everything is that I can now see patterns. It’s so much easier to learn literally anything now. And I’m also really proud that I can combine all my knowledge and create complex projects by myself exactly the way I want - from video editing and 3D to SFX and music. Maybe it’s going to be the most average thing in the world, but I’m okay with that, to be honest. If it reflects me or my feelings in some way, that’s already great.

Anyway, for now, my plan is to learn the basics of motion graphics and After Effects, do some design courses (I’ve found this one, which a lot of people recommend), and after that, I want to dig a little deeper into color grading. If you have any suggestions or recommendations for my learning process, please let me know - you can find my email on the homepage. I’m a little disoriented with all this stuff right now, but usually, that goes away once you understand the basics and figure out what exactly you want to do.